A dream

I had a dream, it was about the man who saved me from danger.

There I was living in a strange city, in an apartment, and there I lived by myself.
I was wandering around the city and decided to pass by the apartment of a friend. But I seem to have lost my way around to my friend's house. There I was stuck in the outskirts of the city, where it has been rumored to have been guarded by a vicious panther. I didn't know what to do, I was lost! I am scared of the thought of being attacked by the panther.

I was about to turn around to look for another route, to escape that horrible part of the city, when a panther blocked my way. I yelled for help as loud as I could, I hoped that the people would hear me, but no one came. Suddenly, out of nowhere, a black racing car appeared. The car door opened and heard a voice saying, "get in, fast!" I hopped inside the car and shut the door, I stared at the window, looking at the mad panther that was about to attack me. I escaped.

I rested my head at the car seat, eager to see who have saved me from that danger, turned my head around to the driver and saw this guy. I sighed and blurted out, "what an angel." His face has this trace of innocence, yet attractive enough to stare at. His facial features were both soft and defined, like how angels are supposed to be. He was tall, well built and has skin as fair as snow.

Exhaustion overcame my senses, I wrapped my arms around him and felt his warmth; that made me relaxed and comforted. He responded by embracing me with his free arm as he continued driving. There I slept on his shoulders.

I woke up at his house, in his room. I looked for him and found him about to take a bath, I told him I had to go. He wanted me to stay, but I insisted that I had to hurry to meet up with a friend. He didn't say a word, he gave me a tight warm hug instead. I felt like melting from what he did.
He told me that his parents are up and I had to dodge them on my way out, he didn't want them to see me, he told me to go out of the house as quickly as I can; and so I did. I saw their helper, she was about to ask me who I was but I just ignored her. I passed by a mirror and saw that I was only wearing shirt and briefs! I heard his parents come out of the master bedroom, so I hurried my way out of their unit. I found a staircase and made my way up. I saw a small door and opened it, and to my surprise, it was my friend's house!
The End.

I don't want to sound so desperate but, I woke up sad after that dream. I was having another 'wishful thinking moment'. Is it wrong to hope for something like that to happen in real life? - to have a man save you from solitude, to love you truthfully and unconditionally? Sigh.

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this is my first ever post from my notebook. ^_^ hooray for me and my notebook. ^_^

if you were to describe happiness in one word how would you describe it?

sunshine. happiness is like sunshine.

but what if it rained? then you wouldn't be happy then?

no. i'd still be happy, because behind that cloud of rain there is still sunshine.

happiness is sunshine. we should learn how to be resilient like sunshine-that despite heavy rains and storms, the sun will continuously emerge to give warmth to everything and everyone.

happiness is not just about contentment, or maybe it is. for resilience of the human spirit makes one optimistic, and this optimism creates contentment.

words.

sometimes the things that we say mean nothing at all. like blank bullets on high caliber guns.
we say things that doesn't really mean anything, but if perceived by the listener, the words that we have said may mean indifferently. it is the listener that gives meaning to each of the words that the speaker says. if the speaker and the listener have the same semantics, then it would be easier for them to understand one another. this is how communication works, and communication is a very broad and complicated matter.

it is frustrating, both for the speaker and the listener if they cannot comprehend each other's words. one may mean a thing, and the other may perceive it differently. this may lead to misunderstanding and failure of good communication - miscommunication.

we have to choose our words wisely, though we can always fire blank bullets, we still have to choose each of the words that we would have to say. it is not irresponsibility, we just forget that sometimes the messages that we convey are either misinterpreted or misunderstood. we are but humans, and to err is a proof of being one.
there are no perfect words, there are no perfect language.

so why am i telling you all these? i don't know.
all i know is, i have this sudden urge to write and say stuff. this may have been probably a result of my overcrowded mind. i have to find an outlet, to let the clutter in my mind go. i have to keep more space in my mind, i have to let it become wide open. i have to think more of bright ideas and catchy concepts. i have to formulate questions.

words. my ways of expressing myself. through this, i can tell you that i am plainly bored. that i have become a stagnant being, imprisoned to the academical confines.
tell me, am i losing myself?

i am crazy. how can you be sure that i'm crazy? are you going to judge me based on this post to tell that i'm crazy. besides, how can you know if one is crazy and you are not. what if in my point-of-view, you are the crazy one and i am not? how do you define crazy?

words. are powerful. yet...
words. sometimes words are just mere words. you just give meaning to it.
words. you sensationalize it. you ignore it. you give attention to it. you read it. you define it.

summer saya

Kasalukuyan akong nagpapakasaya sa nalalabing mga araw ng aking klase ngayong summer.
Masaya ako sa mga kinuha kong mga subjects. Nag Espanyol ako, nag Editorial and Column writing, tsaka PE. Sunod-sunod ang mga klase ko, kaya walang pahinga.

Bakit nga ba ako kumuha ng mga klase ngayong summer? Kasi, ayokong maburo sa bahay dahil walang ginagawa at magagawa.. Ayoko ding mabobo ng dahil sa bakasyon, kaya dapat palaging may ginagawa, binabasa at iniisip para mapanatiling aktiv ang ating isip. Na-iistuck kasi ang isipan natin kapag nanatili itong idle.

Kumuha ako ng Espanyol kasi interesado talaga akong matuto ng ibang lenggwahe. Lalo na ang Espanyol kasi yung iba naming kamag-anakan ay marunong magsalita nito. Naalala ko kasi yung kwento ng nanay ko na ang nasirang lolo ko ay marunong mag Espanyol, tinuruan pa nga nila ako noon kapag nagtatanong ang lolo ko ng oras na kung ano dapat ang isasagot ko.
Wag kayong umasa na bihasa na ako sa Espanyol, Elementary Spanish lang yun, meron pang advanced Spanish. Pero, masayang masaya ako sa klase kong yun. Kahit na dumudugo na ang mga ilong namin kapag nagsasalin na kami ng mga pangungusap sa Ingles pa-Espanyol, at Espanyol pa-Ingles, at kapag nakikipag-usap sa amin ang aming guro sa wikang Espanyol.

Kumuha din ako ng Editorial and Column writing. Major subject namin ito, kaya super saya. Magsusulat kami, makikipagkulitan sa guro naming ubod ng kulit. Tawa kami ng tawa dun, sobrang aliw na aliw kami sa kaguluhan namin sa silid. Kakaunti lang kasi kami sa klase, tutorial section kasi kagaya nung sa klase ko sa Espanyol.
Pero siyempre, hindi mawawala ang pagsusulat. Malaking bahagi ng subject na ito ang pagsusulat at enjoy ako dun. Kahit na minsan ay nabablanko ang isip ko. Mahirap magsulat at humugot ng isang paksa. Mahirap kumuha ng naaangkop na mga salita para mabigyang buhay ang iyong sinusulat. Pero yun ang kaligayahan at pagsubok dun.

Nag-PE naman ako para mabawas-bawasan ang mga taba ko sa katawan. Duon ko lamang naramdaman ang saya ng pagpapapawis... dahil sa paglalaro ng badminton. Ito rin ang oras na nagsisilbi para makihalubilo ako sa mga estudyante ng ibang kurso at sa mga cross enrollee. Masaya naman silang kalaro. ^_^

Masaya ako sa eskwelahan, ito na ata ang pinakamasayang klase sa tag-init na pinasukan ko.

Be Green

Today is Earth Day.

Everybody else wanted me to wear green. But I can't for the reason that I had to wear uniform to school. Yes, even on summer classes we wear our uniforms.
What significance is it if i wear green? It only serves as a reminder of the occasion that is "Earth Day". Not.
It would matter to us most if we do not commemorate Earth Day only once a year, but to keep it in our minds each and every waking moment of our lives.

We shouldn't just wear green, we should live and breathe green. We should all do our share if we want to have a sustainable future. Even though people say that it is inevitable, it is still our business to take care of our planet. We made all the mess, and we should clean them up on our own.

Fight the effects of global warming and sustain a greener future.
Reduce our carbon footprints. Avert for a more effective lifestyle.
Conserve energy.

Let us contribute to attain a healthy, sustainable environment that will serve both the children of our times and the future.

(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Earth_day)
(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Carbon_footprint)
(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Global_warming)
(http://www.worldwildlife.org/climate/involved/individuals.cfm)

Ang paggunita sa multo ng nakalipas

Online ako. Naghahanap ng mga bagong taong makakausap.
Nang makita ko ang profile mo na sumipot kung saan.

Ikaw.
Na may maamong mukha. Nakakapasong mga tingin at nakakatakam na mga labi.
Ikaw.
Na may matatamis na ngiti at nakakahawang mga tawa.
Ikaw.
Na kauna-unahan kong minahal ng tapat.
Ikaw.
Ay kahapon na.

Halos gawin kong kanto ang Olongapo para sa'yo.
Halos ipahamak ko ang sarili ko para sa'yo.
Pero nauwi lang sa wala.
Nakakatawang mga alaala.

Isa ka na lamang multo sa aking nakaraan.

Ngunit sa kabila ng lahat, nagpapasalamat ako sa iyo.
Pinatapang ako ng mga nasawing pangako mo.
Pinaharap sa kinabukasang may pag-asa para sa totoong pagmamahal.
Pinangiti sa kabila ng pagpapaluha.
Tinatanaw ko iyong malaking utang na loob sa iyo. Salamat.

back for summer!

Finally, after the sufferings that we had for the final exams, I finally have my time to blog! Yipee!!!

I'm really sorry for not having posted anything for the past months. I was so preoccupied with school. Enjoying every moment with classmates, friends and professors. I so love school!
Also, I haven't posted anything because I think I'm suffering from something (Yes, I'm making this up to pass as a lame excuse for not blogging.) Hahaha! Kidding! Yeah, I think I've had this writer's block? Is that what you call it? LOL. I dunno if i'm just making up words or what. See, I have a lot, and i mean A LOT of ideas for blog. It is just that, when I am to type things already, nothing would come out... I say, nothing! Plus, add the fact that I haven't got much time to go online.

Well, I hope that beginning today, I will be able to blog constantly. Say things, and share you stories.

I'll have a week break, and another week for enrollment. I'm attending summer classes. C'mon, I don't want to get stuck here at the house doing nothing! So, I'd rather just attend summer classes than be a couch potato. Well who knows? It might just help me lose weight, again. ^_^