the case of the ex...
three months have passed...
and a month full of tears and sniffs are getting old...
though we only lasted for three months, it seems that it was much longer than my one year and two months relationship in comparison. maybe because i love this person so much... i gave everything that i had to give, i love that person with all my life... i mean why does it have to end that way when i expected it to last for a lifetime... life truly is unfair and bitchy... i was happy with him and so does he... but why did it end so soon? reason was infidelity... he gave in to the itch that he felt... he urged, he gave in to the temptation. i don't blame him... i blame guys who still flirt with guys who are already in a relationship... i mean, it's totally preposterous. i also blame myself for being not able to control him from making friends. i mean i don't want him to choke because i was being such a control freak! i just accepted his reasons for breaking up with me. he told me that his feelings felt less on our third month, i dunno if that was reason enough for him to break up with me. i mean there's still a way to rekindle the last two months that we had... i really blame his so called 'friends' who keeps on tempting him. he should have just resisted from them right? i just don't get it... i dunno. he actually has this principle that he believes in, that whenever he thinks that he's with the right guy he'll just stick to him and become loyal to him... i mean flirting is normal in a relationship right? but it just depends on our decision whether we should tolerate it or resist it... hmm... this is getting pointless... i think he just doesn't love me anymore... but why did we lasted for three god damn months? whatever the answer is, god only knows what that is and he'll reveal it in his time...
for now, we're just friends... friends... yeah, i remember that's where we started... who knows? maybe this would be the beginning of a brand new relationship... i know that we get our hearts broken by breakups, but who says that love will never start all over again. love, with it's perpetuity comes hope.
i can't erase the memory that i had when my ex last visited me... i was still finding ways to move on that time... we met at the bus terminal, after my enrollment. he was with a friend of ours (that bitch!!! you'll know the story later). when we met, i can't look at him straight in the eyes... we just broke up two weeks before that and i just can't look at him... tears fall whenever i look at him. i'm still hurt. he told me that he noticed that i can't look at him. he told me that i've changed... but what would i change if i wasn't still over him? so we rode the bus, i was SO kind enough to let our bitchy friend take a seat beside my ex. my ex was situated at the window side, then beside him was our bitchy friend, then me. we were really getting along well... but before we reached our destination... god that fucking bitch did something to my ex... i saw the bitch's (he) hand on my ex's crotch!!! i mean, i was so infuriated that time that i can't even breathe... i asked the bitch, "did you just grope him?" he said, "no." i replied back,"well, i just saw your hand on his crotch!" the bitch was so in denial at that time! i got really mad that i was mad at them the whole time we were commuting our way home. then before we boarded the jeep i asked my ex if he was enjoying, he didn't reply. but after that incident we talked our way through it and forgiven each other. but i really hadn't forgiven that bitch! i got really mad at that time because i was shocked with what i saw. i mean i hadn't moved on yet that time, i still wasn't ready to see such scene. the bitch told me he was sorry... but i was puzzled that my ex tolerated that. he knows that i still hadn't moved on... but why?
days had gone and we fought again... i know that i don't have a reason to be mad at him because we're already through right? i only reasoned out that i still hadn't moved on...
but i'm glad that my ex and i are friends... and i am such a bitch for being so hypocritical with our bitchy friend emman. so my ex and i, we're starting all over again, as friends. starting a new chapter in our lives... love, with it's perpetuity comes hope.
love never gives up; and its faith, hope, and patience never fail. Love is eternal. 1 corinthians 13
three months have passed...
and a month full of tears and sniffs are getting old...
though we only lasted for three months, it seems that it was much longer than my one year and two months relationship in comparison. maybe because i love this person so much... i gave everything that i had to give, i love that person with all my life... i mean why does it have to end that way when i expected it to last for a lifetime... life truly is unfair and bitchy... i was happy with him and so does he... but why did it end so soon? reason was infidelity... he gave in to the itch that he felt... he urged, he gave in to the temptation. i don't blame him... i blame guys who still flirt with guys who are already in a relationship... i mean, it's totally preposterous. i also blame myself for being not able to control him from making friends. i mean i don't want him to choke because i was being such a control freak! i just accepted his reasons for breaking up with me. he told me that his feelings felt less on our third month, i dunno if that was reason enough for him to break up with me. i mean there's still a way to rekindle the last two months that we had... i really blame his so called 'friends' who keeps on tempting him. he should have just resisted from them right? i just don't get it... i dunno. he actually has this principle that he believes in, that whenever he thinks that he's with the right guy he'll just stick to him and become loyal to him... i mean flirting is normal in a relationship right? but it just depends on our decision whether we should tolerate it or resist it... hmm... this is getting pointless... i think he just doesn't love me anymore... but why did we lasted for three god damn months? whatever the answer is, god only knows what that is and he'll reveal it in his time...
for now, we're just friends... friends... yeah, i remember that's where we started... who knows? maybe this would be the beginning of a brand new relationship... i know that we get our hearts broken by breakups, but who says that love will never start all over again. love, with it's perpetuity comes hope.
i can't erase the memory that i had when my ex last visited me... i was still finding ways to move on that time... we met at the bus terminal, after my enrollment. he was with a friend of ours (that bitch!!! you'll know the story later). when we met, i can't look at him straight in the eyes... we just broke up two weeks before that and i just can't look at him... tears fall whenever i look at him. i'm still hurt. he told me that he noticed that i can't look at him. he told me that i've changed... but what would i change if i wasn't still over him? so we rode the bus, i was SO kind enough to let our bitchy friend take a seat beside my ex. my ex was situated at the window side, then beside him was our bitchy friend, then me. we were really getting along well... but before we reached our destination... god that fucking bitch did something to my ex... i saw the bitch's (he) hand on my ex's crotch!!! i mean, i was so infuriated that time that i can't even breathe... i asked the bitch, "did you just grope him?" he said, "no." i replied back,"well, i just saw your hand on his crotch!" the bitch was so in denial at that time! i got really mad that i was mad at them the whole time we were commuting our way home. then before we boarded the jeep i asked my ex if he was enjoying, he didn't reply. but after that incident we talked our way through it and forgiven each other. but i really hadn't forgiven that bitch! i got really mad at that time because i was shocked with what i saw. i mean i hadn't moved on yet that time, i still wasn't ready to see such scene. the bitch told me he was sorry... but i was puzzled that my ex tolerated that. he knows that i still hadn't moved on... but why?
days had gone and we fought again... i know that i don't have a reason to be mad at him because we're already through right? i only reasoned out that i still hadn't moved on...
but i'm glad that my ex and i are friends... and i am such a bitch for being so hypocritical with our bitchy friend emman. so my ex and i, we're starting all over again, as friends. starting a new chapter in our lives... love, with it's perpetuity comes hope.
love never gives up; and its faith, hope, and patience never fail. Love is eternal. 1 corinthians 13
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